GUYS SUCK!!! AHHH!!

Lets see. I get back together with my nutty ex a while back and this is what happens.
Seeing as how some crazy, dramatic stuff pretty much tore my heart in two this year, it was hard to be dating someone so suddenly. Then finally when I open up and start trusting guys again my boyfriend dumps me (last Thursday).. thus tearing my heart in two… AGAIN, canceling dates, and possibly making me sick (If you believe in that kind of weirdness).
In one second hes crazy about me and in another he couldn’t care less. Guess what? I figured out the other day that he has a new girlfriend. Guess when they started going out? LAST THURSDAY! That’s what I heard anyways. Idk, he could have been cheating on me… who knows???
The one thing I DO know is… GUYS SUCK!!! AHHH!!

Wishin I had a CAMERA

I’ve been wanting this camera for about 6 months. When I saw it I decided to save up and buy it. Welllll I got nothin to save up. Soooo I still don’t have my camera. Waaahhhh…. It would be great to have it for camp. It’s so pretty there.
I go to a camp called Lake Forest Ranch every year for a week or more. This year I’ll be going 3 weeks and I caaannn’t wait!!

Blackberry Storm

I WANT ONE!!! SOOOOO BAD!!! Or at least the Blackberry Bold. I just can’t deal with the Samsung Glyde anymore, it’s touch screen is totally messed up, its menus are weird, its camera sucks. AHHHHHH! The ONLY thing I like about my phone is the slide out qwerty keyboard. (that’s a lot of why I wanted it)
If I go with the Blackberry I’ll be more organized, and I’ll feel so much better once I don’t have a phone that makes me so mad I end up throwing it at a WALL! (I patched it up, It’ll be fine)
I NEEEDD an allowance cuz I neeeddd a new phone.
Something stylish, organized, something that will last long, has a long battery, has bluetooth, internet, texting, and a qwerty keyboard if possible. The Storm is an exception.
Having something with menus… THAT MAKE SENSE! Would be soooo nice. I’m stressed enough already. GRR…. *sigh*

“Schoooools out for SUMMER…”

Yaaayyyy, finally some relaxing time. I really need it. So stressed lately.

Update: Livin in Jersey, homeschooling. Don’t ask who’s teaching me cuz I’ll just say “NO ONE!” for the 50 millionth time. I’m taking online courses. It’s not fun, but my grades are better.

I wanna write more, but for some reason my whole left arm is cramping. More later.

Being 15 is tougher then I thought it would be.

I miss my dad, I miss my mom, and I’m not getting enough sleep. (oops) Usually that’s really bad because with me no sleep = impatientness, and I’m already quite impatient… so then when someone says something stupid I overreact, or if someone has just a little to much attitude I don’t even try to hide the fact that I’m not gonna deal with someone acting like that towards me or a friend. So then people think I’m mean…. sigh.. Sometimes I’m not very nice I’ll admit that, but if I’m extra angry all the time it usually means somethings wrong. Like friends, or guys, or family being on the on the other side of the world. (ok, maybe not the OTHER SIDE of the world, but far  enough.)

Next time your life is perfect don’t say a word about it, trust me, you’ll jinx yourself. “Wow everything is perfect, la de da de da..” then BAM everything sucks.

I know I’m kinda rambling, so maybe the PS will explain some of my randomness.

PS Guys are stupid! Right now my best friend is probably my guitar… and it’s getting restrung this week. How sad am I right now? I mean honestly, really, gosh. (At least I can borrow one of my aunt’s guitars for now. That’s good.) Guys are stupid! And yes, I realize I already said that.

Heya, Tom’ it’s Bob from the office down the hall. Good to see you, buddy; how’ve you been? Things have been OK for me except that I’m a zombie now…

So my life has been a little confusing lately. Yeah. The title of this blog post by the way is lyrics to a song. tehe.

Anyways, my mooommm is in New Jersey now. I’m finishing the school year here in Indiana and doing the normalish summer stuff before I move there.

We’ve decided to go with homeschooling next year. I’m gonna catch up on some math stuff that way.

Lets see… what else? Well, there’s some drama at school, but that’s not exactly a new thing, is it?

OK!!! I’m tired!! More later, when I’m more awake.. and sane. (I’m not so normal when I’m tired)

I know, I know…

It’s been a while since I’ve done some real blogging. Life has been so stressful lately. Maybe I’ll be fixed in a month or so.

Hey, hey, hey, guess whos the president starting today??? OBAMA! Mwhahahaha, yay!

Christmas

Yay for Christmas. It’s only one day away. Its not the same as when I was tiny and still thought Santa was real, but its still a fun day. Family yay.

Random?

I’ve been so busy on Twitter and Facebook I almost forgot about Jaqi’s World. Yikes.

So, who’s lookin forward to Christmas?? I guess I am, yay. I’m mostly just happy to have some time off from school. I’m also looking forward to New Years. I don’t know why exactly.

Grr.. I got NO sleep last night. I had constant nightmares and they were all about things… chasing me, trying to kill me. Eventually I just give up, and then right as I’m being killed I bolt up in my bed and sigh, annoyed that it happend AGAIN! The one nightmare I had that wasnt about someone killing me was about me being in a car crash on my school bus in New York City. And there were different people in it, people fom my school that don’t take my bus and people form my old schools. Anyways the bus was spinning and it was out of control and then we somehow ended up in water and that changed to my next dream where I was swiming in an ocean near an island at night where I had NEVER been before. That dream was one of the scary dreams. Yeah scarier than being in a burning, flying, drowning bus with all you bestfriends.

Hopefully tomorrow night wont be so SCARY.

Indiana

I think I’m actually getting used to it. Yeah, I know right! Weird. I’ve made good friends and I’m still me, ya know?

That teenage New Yorker who moved to the middle of no where, and didn’t commit suicide. Yep, that’s me.